Journal Entry: Not much going on December 9th, 2008

Well, just thought I'd share that I'm ok. The day came and went. I teared up the first time when I opened my inbox and there was a note from my sister just letting us know she knows. I didn't have any major bawling episodes, thank goodness. Not like last year. I didn't feel like I was socked in the gut or have the shaking the heavens and the earth type of let down Just a few silent tears. Very few.

Around the hour that she was born, I soflty sang happy birthday to her, over my ol time favorite Baskin Robbins. I took A there as a treat for the both of us. The boys had a Christmas program at church then we went out to dinner with my mom. My meal was disappointing, so was the conversation when she said that A had reminded her of what the day was. I was surprised that A even acknowledged it at all, let alone spoke about it to someone else. On her Myspce she said she was sad and the header said "Happy Birthday Charlotte". Another set of tears flowed.

B didn't even remember what the day was. I was making breakfasat after church and I said "You know... today is Baby Girl's birthday". He said "huh?" Not once, but 3 times. He also said "I don't get it..." >>rolling my eyes here<<.

But instead of me making a big deal out of him forgetting I just sucked it in and continued making the French toast. He got pretty huffy and asked why there was so much tension now. I just shrugged my shoulders. I wasn't gonna fight him or try to make him feel bad. I figured ok, this is how it is now. A faded picture for some. But not to me.

So that was the 7th in a nutshell. I did have some other people call/email me to tell me they were thinking about us, but not many. That's ok. I knew this day would come.

I did receive a wonderful phone call yesterday though... my dear friend Amber called to tell me she's pregnant. I am so excited for them. One day, when I'm feeling up to it, I am going to post the whole story of our friendship. But it's heavy, and I know I'll cry. But for now... yay Amber!!


  1. Christine,
    I love you girl!!!
    Thank you for sharing your heart.
    You are the best!
    Hugs my friend!

  2. Christine,
    Are you in a writers block? I miss reading your thoughts and heart. I love you friend.